A Weekend at Home, Where the Questions Begin
Ahhh, home.
After weeks away from my hometown, it feels so good to spend a relaxing long weekend here. These past two days, I’ve been starting my mornings with juice for breakfast (thanks, Mom!) and spending the rest of the day enjoying a brief escape from Jakarta’s uproarious life. Just as the juice is a refreshing morning pick-me-up, a weekend at home is a restorative retreat for my soul and mind.
Today, as I savor a break from the ambitious life of a 20-something, I reflect on my life choices. I often find myself wondering, “Am I truly on the right career path?” I used to proudly claim that I loved what I do for a living, but now, for the first time, I’m questioning whether I want to do this forever.
Did I prematurely choose my career during my early days as a white-collar worker, or is this just a typical burnout phase for an eight-to-five employee?
Honestly, I’m not sure. If there’s something navigating my twenties has taught me, it’s that preferences can easily change. I used to think I wasn’t indecisive, but lately, I’ve been questioning some of my past decisions—“Are these the people I want to spend most of my week with?” or “Is this workplace good for me in the long run?” or even “Should I stay here for the rest of my career, refusing to believe that there might be better opportunities out there?”
I know it’s natural to question these things, but a part of me still feels guilty for sounding like an ungrateful brat. So please don’t get me wrong—I’m deeply thankful for every path that has brought me to where I am now. I just don’t want my confusion to cloud my judgment if this is truly what’s best for me…
But if I keep wondering for the rest of my life, how can I ever be sure?
Oh, January. Before this month ends, I hope I can find the answer to that.
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