A Much-Needed Monday Reset (Because Sunday Usually Gets Hectic)

So, I called in sick yesterday. My stomach ached, and mentally, I hadn’t been feeling quite right.

I’ll start this post by saying that everything has felt overwhelming lately. The noise coming from my head—thoughts and emotions all tangled up—bothers me more than usual. I’ve been feeling unfulfilled (work-wise), too clingy (relationship-wise), messy (self-care-wise), and empty (generally speaking-wise). Moreover, my tendency to romanticize the little things in life has also disappeared.

I know these are all human emotions. What I’m experiencing is normal. A phase is just a phase—no matter how awful. My quiet time this morning reminded me that it’s unrealistic to expect happiness and positivity all the time. Sometimes we need space to heal.

And I guess this is mine.

I don’t know what the point of this post is. I’m not a motivator. I don’t even have a licensed therapist to talk things through with. All I know is that I want to feel that spark again—the one that makes me romanticize doing laundry, dyeing my hair, or walking to the office. I even miss feeling as if I don’t work only for the paycheck—but because I genuinely love my job.

If this downtime has taught me anything, it’s that real change should start from within, not from external circumstances. I’ve realized that even though I’m not usually a procrastinator, I’ve been postponing the bigger things in life for the sake of waiting for better conditions.

Some examples:

“I’ll start working out regularly once I have an apartment near the gym.”

“I’ll start cooking once I have a big, beautiful kitchen.”

“I’ll start pampering my hair once I have a nicer bathroom.”

And the list goes on.

Now, the million-dollar question is: Why should I wait to do something good for myself? If I want to regain positive control of my life, I need to start doing that now. I need to start claiming the life I want—not someday when things feel “greater” or more perfect.

Well, even now, I’m still not sure what the point of this post is, but I’ve realized one important thing: the life I want isn’t waiting for me somewhere in the future. It starts with the choices I make today.

If you like this post, you might also enjoy A Chaotic Morning Reflection: In Feeling the Rain and  A Quarter-Life Situation.