On Returning (and Feeling Everything at Once)

After a… while, it’s me again, friends. Hi.

I didn’t mean to stay away from writing for that long (you know how frequently I used to post on here, right?), but when real-life work calls, I have to answer. So I was away these past two months, doing what I needed to do.

But now I’m back… hopefully. I still feel a bit overwhelmed by what freedom feels like after going to the office for two months straight (even on weekends, yes). It may sound comically ironic, but I also feel kind of overstimulated by all the things I want to do again—reading, writing, crocheting, watching movies, while also squeezing in workouts in between everything.

(At one point, I even joked to my mom that I hope my boyfriend becomes rich—RICH—so I wouldn’t have to work and could just do all my hobbies every day.)

But I do love going home at 5 in the evening and catching the sunset from the bus. I do love having a routine at the office that feels much less suffocating. And I certainly love having the desire to write again…

Believe it or not, I’ve wanted to post something since the first of May, but I just haven’t found the right words… or the will. Everything feels strange when the chaos suddenly disappears. I’ve been scrambling to navigate this after-work life back to what I used to do.

And today, I’m finally writing again. I’m learning to fall in love again with the idea of having a personal literary space—one I once called my digital home. I’m also seeing new subscribers join my blogs’ mailing list (thank you SO MUCH YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE), and please take this as a promise that I’ll send an update email soon. One step at a time, right?

I promise I’ll be back here more often. I have so many things I discovered during my “freeze” period: like how stoicism might not be entirely for me, though I’ve adopted some of its ideas as rules of thumb; how we can rewire our brains through neuroplasticity; or how talking to myself actually helps me stay more positive.

And I can’t wait to bore you with everything else (though, please come back).